Now you may be asking yourself: "Twenty years? Why haven't you been able to finish your story in twenty years?" Well, there are many reasons why but I'll point to the one reason that's been a thorn on my side: having too much faith in people. I've trusted people who eventually end up not coming through for me, specifically colorists. I could sit here and name you twenty people that have failed me, even when I'm paying them; but I'll just talk about my latest disappointment and the never ending battle to finish my story.
At this point I decided to terminate our agreement but I have to admit, this whole situation has left me frustrated and bitter. I'm angry because I paid her what she asked for no questions asked, never missed a payment, treated her with nothing but respect and yet; she ends up spitting in my face! I'm frustrated because after paying for ten pages I can't even use them anymore, so that's money I wasted for nothing. I honestly think I reached my breaking point. At this point I don't think I have energy left to continue, I don't think I can deal with yet another disappointment; so maybe the best thing for me is to step away from comics altogether. I love this medium to never draw a comic book again, but maybe I'll work in silence, without deadlines, without announcing anything, without worrying if I ever print a book much less sell it. Maybe I'll finish my story one day and I'll post it here on this website, maybe I'll print it; who knows. I'm sorry if I've disappointed anyone but I don't seem to have that many fans anyway, at least if the sale of my commissions is an indicator so I think the damage will be minimal to anyone but me; to me this has been devastating. I guess I'll see you around. Stay Truthful people...
Manuel A. Carmona